Along with my newly-renovated blog, I'd rather add this post in 'cause you know how much you missed it, too! Haha! On the top of my head is that I am still proudly unemployed until now. Been useless around 6 months already (OMG has it really been that long!?). I guess this has something to do with how I planned my life a year ago--I was in a total disarray because of SOOOO many school works that I vividly remember telling myself that after I graduated, I would stop for a looooong break. I did not realize how badly I wanted to work then. So for those metaphysical beings who heard my childish plan last year, please hear me now as I regret saying that. There's just too much nonsense (obviously) about my life these days. I can't tell you how my day/week/month went because it'll bore you to the depths of your dying soul. Example: "I remember eating crap the other day, I bought McDonalds' fries and left it on the table for about 2 hours. I came back to eat and it tasted utterly dry and oily that I swear I cannot even let our dog eat that crap because that crap might cause him to crap all over the place again." that's how crappy it'll sound that even if I try to put some relevant issues to it like; 'well we shouldn't let our dogs eat those crappy, spoiled food because you'll never know what'll happen to them if they eat it; that's some moral lesson you can take if you really care for your dog.' see? it still sounds so off.
That's why even if I absolutely have the desire to write about anything, I couldn't. I can tell you how affected I am for not having a job until now (only because society somehow has that power to make you feel bad about being unemployed). Of course I've been saved by different companies who gave me a shot to prove myself, some were okay (but I was choosy bec. of the schedule) and some were negative. Here's the thing. If you have a very weirdo, out-of-this-world course like I had, it'll be really difficult for those companies to employ you, agree? If I had taken engineering, I.T. or other well-known courses, I'm pretty sure that I won't be sitting here right now. Not that I'm blaming PhilArts for this--heck I love my course so much that I don't care if friends and family don't get what it's about! But that's the thing, you can love it so much that some will still hate and not appreciate what it did for you and what it can possibly do in many fields. I've news about my colleagues working already and some are pursuing law, med and stuff, so what I am right now should not be a forefront example of what PhilArts can do. Maybe I wasn't really there yet. The feeling of hunger or thirst to work. That feeling that only fresh graduates will have if they really want or desire an employed life. Maybe I'm just not there, I thought I was, but maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I needed more time to explore bunch of things that I can only do without being restrained by a job schedule. All I know is that I'm prepared, anytime. Any time an opportunity is handed out, I think first before indulging because I've done so many wrong turns in my life that I know I can never undo.
I've been thinking about writing a book review/ creating a playlist but I guess it can wait. Till then!
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