in the shed

there are times when I think of life as an enormous jigsaw puzzle. countless times that I figure that in each day that passes, we all search for the scattered pieces of ourselves to finally put them together to create a whole sensible picture of what we are ought to be. lucky for those who find the right pieces at the right time and unfortunately for others who have gathered pieces that fit together but doesn't really make sense at all. i have a lot of very stubborn thoughts that I continue to ignore every now and then. these thoughts would usually make sense at first but later on, I'd end up screwing my decisions and screwing the whole jigsaw puzzle. i know i'm not the only one who thinks that growing up faster than you should and having to decide which path  to take at such limited time are the hardest things to deal with.


opportunities are everywhere but they can pop away so easily like bubbles without you even touching them. when people ask what my plans are, in essence, what kind of job do I want to do et cetera et cetera, i can't easily make a straight answer because other than thinking of what job/path I'd like to take, i have other baggage that i'm taking with me. i'm one of those who thinks that life can wait, opportunities have their own shelf lives but that doesn't mean i wont be able to take one someday. may sound absurd to some or may seem an excuse but seriously, there is nothing else i want to do right now but wait.


i can perhaps say that i'm on a waiting shed right now, basically waiting for what life has to offer. i do know that it's always better to go the extra mile to find the right profession that fits you and grabbing all opportunities handed out to you, well that's exactly what a smart person would do anyway. but i'm stuck at this waiting shed. a shed that gave me an experience that i will bring with me for until i enter my grave. an experience that will be held liable for the future choices that i will make. i feel secure being in this shed because it gave me the resilience that money is not everything. it is always of value to me that i have the best people i can fall back to and that's family.


your puzzle pieces are everywhere, depends on how you see your life, the way you were yesterday, today and the next day. depends on where you put the pieces together, depends on the choices of pieces you want to put together. it always depends on you. well, there are diverse cases wherein one cannot really decide for his/herself. there are cases that we cannot really find the right pieces of the puzzle because we're too busy doing what others have decided for us that we eventually thought made sense. but how would you know anyway? how would you know if something fits or not? oh well, some of life's complications. it's for you to make sense out of things that are just plain senseless.


if this is where God or fate wants me to be for a while, then there's nothing else i'd love more but to take the seat, relax, flex as i gradually realize what i'm meant to do for the next coming years and soon, maybe, if lucky, i'll find the scattered pieces to make my own bigger picture out of life's complexities.