How lucky?

“Do you regret being in UP?” my father curiously asked. At first, I was stunned, that for the very first time after a long time, he asked for my opinion. I pondered for a few seconds. I knew deep inside I wanted to scream a big YES to him and maybe throw up an enormous tantrum and constantly whine all day.

And yet, I didn’t. I just said; “nahihirapan lang po”

“saan ka nahihirapan?”

Again, in the present state of broad imagination, I have thought of emphasizing to him that “everything” is difficult and “everything” is excruciating to be exact. In fact, maybe I could even exclaim how I wanted to disregard and depart from UP considering the countless times I’ve cried my eyes out and felt like a total loser.

And no, I didn’t keep my mouth shut about it, because I responded withthe truth, that “everything is pretty much difficult for me” (well, half-truth)

He then answered his one of those, ask-me-and-I’ll-answer-you-in-totally-complete-detail sort of responses.

Mom joined in the conversation, wherein I pretty much played the role of the listener for the whole period. They particularly draw their attention to stressing out how LUCKY I am to be in UP; how fortunate of me to be in a “walking-distance” school, and how grateful I should be because I am in UP.

I’m not saying that I’m not in favor of UP or anything; of course it will always be a benefit. But let’s just say, I know I can always settle on the average, because I am, too.

In this world, there will always be a fine line between genius and stupid. The genius knows, the stupid doesn’t. The genius neglects, the stupid notices. The genius analyzes, the stupid is indifferent. The genius is sensitive, but is insensitive to feelings. The stupid is insensitive, but is sensitive to emotions. That’s why they say, if you get to experience love, you get to be stupid.

I stand at two places at once, and the line is where I stand most. Confused, but never been misled. Although I admire the fact that I am in UP, I can’t stand the thought that I should act intelligent and be intelligent (if that's even possible). Besides, I am neither genius nor stupid.


It is the rough road that’ll help us achieve the best goals in life; it is in this road that would best lead us to a wondrous place in the end. Why? You’ll have to figure it out on your own choice of path.

Whenever I feel like a total loser, I always lean on to this verse:


Acts 5:3-5

“But that’s not all! We gladly suffer, because we know that suffering helps us to endure and endurance builds character, which gives us a hope that will never disappoint us. All of this happens because God has given us the Holy Spirit, who fills our hearts with His love.”