Anyway, the purpose of this post is to allocate chock-full of memories I wouldn’t forget in the past 2008.
2008-- one of the most memorable years I’ve had. It played real good at first, been so lucky with almost every aspect of my life, have had memoirs that are incomparable, I also attained a sufficient grades and made my parents proud, received desirable techie stuffs, and had been lucky with other things.
Summer came, dreadful situations regarding my techie stuffs arose—lost 2 cell phones, precious digital camera took a dive in a 2-feet pool, accidentally spilled a soup of noodles in my laptop and refused to power on until now—well isn’t that nice? I also thought I wouldn’t be back to school anymore because of the torture that my parents gave me while I was still in my former university. I was lingering in the thought of death, attempting a not-so-useful suicide, and was hoping for a not-so happy ending. I know it sounds shallow, but if you were in my place, you’d rather die too. I know I hated school sometimes, but I wouldn’t live my life without it, I swear.
But luckily for me, God gave me another proposal to live life as it is. It was unquestionably fortunate of me to be accepted in one of the most prestigious universities in the Philippines. Although at first, I didn’t grasp the idea of having Philippine Arts as my driveway for success 4 years from now, I knew God wouldn’t give me this opportunity if He knew it would lead to nothingness. Surely you would doubt a person’s capability whenever you hear this course; I know that completely and had come across countless people judging me because of it. “What would your job be?” “What’s with PA?” bla bla bla.
Believe me; I wouldn’t want to know what I would be after this, I’d rather not know--for now.
Being a UPm student is the highlight of my year ’08. It’s the major turning point I had to do in my life. Starting from scratch all over again, getting used to the whole new environment, trying to be at ease with all the pressures and toxicities, and finding ways to gather strength and reliance.
I started fine and dandy being an iska, though I had troubles in pretending to be studious and had constantly been bleeding my mind out; I went off just fairly to regard as a proper modesty. But it all just became so unlike when my newly-found friend dragged me in to join a certain organization in which I had never, ever ever ever, planned in considering. It is where all miseries begun; I had creatively made a complete fool out of myself by singing off-key in front of a crowd, now how’s that for a freshman student trying to feel secure in her new realm? And moving on was difficult, some people wouldn’t understand how mad I was at myself that time, of course I would loathe the feeling of humiliation yet in the end I find no gray clouds because I know I had to move forward.
I also wouldn’t forget how I was dragged by my cousin to something really significant.
I was weary almost all my days of 2008, I wasn’t at all happy with all the circumstances that was happening; I knew I needed a guidance and a sense of direction before I could entirely pull myself towards death. And that is where He came into my life again, reminding me of His presence and how neglectful I was. After everything that had occurred that year, He was the only one who thought me how to stand up from my failures and face life wholeheartedly.
2008 was also the best year.
I’ve been more close to my siblings, remembering how I hated them since, because of their stubbornness, naughtiness, and bigheaded attitude. Gradually I had learned to love them as they are and accept them as my full-time brothers. Mothers are known for their efficiency in making their kids feel bad at times, my mom has always been an inspiration to me, at times I dislike her, but I never stopped loving her since the second she had brought me into this world. My father never saw me as someone worthy of praise until I was obliged and had reluctantly followed his footsteps since high school until now. My world has been this crazy and wonderful because of him, and everything that I’m doing right now is for his enduring dream for Jade’s vivid future. [???] (wth)
Friends are the added spices in my life, I had met a whole bunch of new earthlings this 2008 especially because of UPm. My Lycean pals will always be important, because they never fail to make me feel as an essential and a genuine friend to them.
Love? I started 2008 having someone whom I thought (again) I could share a happily ever after with. A classmate when I was in my elementary days, we had the chance to get to know each other well and consequently, it became deeper. Bottom-line is, all is fair in love but life itself is never fair. I knew I had to let go of him (although he’s the one who lose the grip), not because I don’t love him, probably because I have no intentions or whatsoever to keep up with his odd ways of love. Harsh? Not really, I hate the fact that I couldn’t explain how falling out of love really happens.
After that, I actually swore that I would be an ex-lover no more to anybody else, for I believe that He’ll be the one to give me someone I deserve someday. Yes I swore but then again I’ve been slipshod when I met another guy who didn’t just swept me off my feet but also valiantly showed me that not all guys are the same. And yes, here I go again, but this time I know better, I suppose, and if this one fails again, I would really have to cut my heart into pieces, no kidding. That’s why all I’m thinking about is what's now and not
Regardless of all the bad occurrences, 2008 was actually good to me. =)
I can say how saddened I was with the loss of all my “techie stuffs”, but none of that matter anymore. Surely I had embarrassed myself numerous times, but then again, it’s history!—get mad and get over it.
All I can say is; this is another year to be grateful for, right? Forget the past, focus on the present, hold on to the future and for whatever it takes to bring glory and praise to Him, we should do so with an open minds and hearts.
HAPPY 2009 everyone. =)
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