Morning sickness.

I opened my eyes unwillingly this morning, awakened by the unbearable noise of my siblings. And with my one eye open, I took a peek at my cell phone which is also the reason why my dreams crushed into reality.

12 new messages.

I browsed the messages and saw one text that absolutely gave me the reason to wake my senses.

“Nah! Nakuha mo na grade mo sa 125? Tres ako! Shet!”
”Di pa! Wah! Pwede ng kunin?”
”Sa crs ko lang nakita e! Check mo na dun!”

At syempre.

Knowing that PA125 is the only subject that I have no idea of what my grade is, I woke up and neglected the 11 messages left. *bad*

And there it is, my ultimate GWA for this first-ever semester that I spent in UPm.

“hindi ka ba satisfied?” tanong ng isang tao.

Hindi.

I don’t know why, I mean I should be grateful actually, but the truth always sinks in, that I could’ve done better, that I could’ve given my paramount shot, that I could’ve prayed harder, and that I could’ve thrown myself to death just to study.

But I can’t be that person, sabi ko nga, hindi talaga ko grade monster. :))

Tama nga si Sr. Del Mundo, “bakit ba takaw na takaw kayo sa uno?”

Haha! Of course we should not aim for perfection, but at least, we should aim for what will satisfy us. at hindi ako satisfied, pero on the contrary, grateful talaga ko, somehow I felt peace that I went through my first semester without failing anything.

Everything seems to be on the opposite of how it was last year, I couldn’t show my list of grades to my parents, not because they’ll be disappointed, frustrated or anything, it’s because I know it is not what I wanted them to see. I’m in UP because it is where they want me to be, I am in UP because it is the years that I’ll be wasting just to show and prove that I am worthy of praise from them.

It's weird how I can be so obedient yet I am being impish when it comes to other things.

Well maybe because, it’s a do or die thing.

If I wouldn’t obey, I’d suffer the consequence of being illiterate (haha! ang tindi ng term!)

Sigh..

Life is never fair.

and at this moment, one question still remains:

"Masaya ka ba sa P.A.?"



NR.

have a great day everyone!





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