Shattered.

Tonight is the night that I am going to cry over you.

I’m going to re-read your letters recall our memories and smile with tears.

Tonight I’m going to say “I love you” until I fall asleep.

Tonight I’m going to think of you, and feel you beside me as I hug my pillow tight.

You were the only person I counted on for a lot of things.

It was my fault I was too selfish.

I regret, not being selfish, but by letting myself drown into this emotion.

Sorry I failed once again.

Sorry I was irrational.

Stare at the stars tonight, my dear, I will always watch over you, I won’t ever let a day pass without thinking and praying for you.

Remember when we used to watch the sunset even if the sun hurts our eyes? That’s how we are, we kept going, and we ignore the pain, because we see the beauty of our togetherness rather than the pain.

Sometimes we fail to stop and tell each other the most important things we both should know, and sometimes those moments that we ignored are the ones that we should’ve never taken for granted.

I will sleep soundly as I let myself feel every pain I deserves.

Today is the day I will slowly pick up all the pieces that you’ve left behind.

Today I will lock my heart in a box, and throw away the key. Someday someone will get it for me.

I will miss everything about you.

Everything.

Darling, forgive me. =(