They know that Santa's on his way..

"Everything that is done in the present affects the future in the form of consequence and affects the past in the form of redemption"

He's back.. I cant really tell whether I'm glad or pissed when I saw his face when I came home from school. I was really tired and so I headed up to my room and told myself, "whatthehell.." went to bed, covered my face with a pillow and hoped it was some nightmare I should wake up from. But no, its reality that scares the hell out of me whenever he's around. He's trying to make amends by constantly recognizing my presence, he makes his own "papansin" ways to find a way to talk things out, but no matter how hard he tries, I would never find it that easy to forgive him.

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IT'S OFFICIAL. CHRISTMAS BREAK! HURAAAAAAAAAAHHH.

Christmas? I dont even know what christmas is about already. I had forgotten what it feels like. The christmas breeze, the caroling, the presents we receive, the joyous families..

I feel like I've withdrawn myself from the tradition of smiles and love.

(ahm..this is me, showing off my super power)

BUT NO. I'm very glad for the things I have. I have a family who's going through the most difficult times and yet we are strong enough to keep the family whole. I have friends, few friends, who remain true to me despite of the distance. I have a best friend who's always there to remind me that I am not alone. I have my self, who's striving and yet smiling albeit unforeseen circumstances of everyday.

It's not the perfection of the surroundings that one should depend his/her happiness to, it's the forces within us that make us feel alive and happy. Forces that tell us that life is not perfect but it is beautiful. :) It is not easy to find these forces, but we can create them the way we want them to. I have few things I can be proud of, few things that not everyone will appreciate, since then I know I'm not worthy of any greatness, but let me just say that maybe.. just maybe.. someday I would find myself really content with the few things I have to offer to Him and to everyone else.

Sometimes I just love staring at the stars. It reminds me that we are all under the same sky. Not too far from each other. So that whenever we feel we are alone, the stars are there to serve as symbols of our oneness in His name.

I know that after this "break", I would get back on being the loneliest and happiest person that I am at school and at home. But for now, let us start being more selfless and be more positive than we've ever been. :) Our country is going to undergo a future change this next year, may we always pray for our fellow individuals to make the right decision on whom to consider the next president. I refuse to get myself involved in the future elections, for I do not find the politics trustworthy.

For now, I'm saving all my love for christmas. To give what I can give. To share what I can share. And to smile while I can. HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE. :)