1 year down. 3 more to go.

Looking back on the old halcyon days at my former university, I often wonder what I would be like instead of this present state torment and fretfulness. I envy those who are already out of town, wandering anywhere, having fun, sleeping all day, and have already freed their thoughts of school works. I, on the other hand, am almost at the end of this term, 2 more exams, or rather 1 (I decided not to take finals on SocSci 2, due to laziness and stubbornness), on Saturday and after that I’m through with my first year in UP manila. YIPEEEEEE.

Let’s press rewind, shall we?



THE U-TURN.
(APRIL-JUNE 2008)

I became a stupid puppet on a string for doing things I’m forced to do. It’s almost a feeling of rotating my world upside-down and exposing the wrong-side up. Driving towards an unknown street, only to find out that it is surrounded by bulky stones and bloody asphalt all over, that there’s no turning back. This road has taught me a lot of driving techniques about how to endure dangerous gigantic humps and horrifying monsters about to eat half-stupid beings like me.


THE PEOPLE.

There are various people that I’ve been acquainted with and, for some reasons, they only existed because I have a need of them and they have a need of mine. Gladly though, I made friends with few individuals that are genuinely nice and very much dependable. Hindi naman kasi ako Ms. Congeniality tulad ng isang tao dyan, making friends for the sake of attention, tsk tsk. Oo nagpaparinig ako. =)


THE PROFESSORS.

I've been fed and tortured by a number of excellent professors that I came across—-some of them strict, some were plain toxic, some are angel in disguise, some are good in lullaby, and yet all were incredibly knowledgeable. Though I dislike some of them, especially SS professors, still it was worth the toxicity and pressure.


THE SUBJECTS.

Without doubt, I could say that the "hellsome" subjects I’ve had are in-between difficult and easy OR in-between difficult and extremely difficult. Easy subjects were quite rare, but easy professors are possible. If the subject is hard, some professors can ease the difficulty, but if the subject is quite easy, the professor could be the problem. For my case, the latter is more abundant. My much-loved subject is Philosophy I (please dont kill me), although it caused me so much headache, I loved it anyhow.


RED BULL, COBRA, LIPOVITAN.

I remembered studying for like, the whole day, and all I get is only an inch above from average. Which goes to show that productivity when it comes to studying is rather insufficient :)) one has to have a big and active brain to begin with--so that's the main problem. I was quite GC at my first semester; gradually I became unenthusiastic in studying. But I was this addicted to energy drinks on the first semester and the first-half of second semester; I became reluctant when February and March came along. Some efforts paid off quite well, yet I still strongly hope for a passing and satisfying grades for the whole year.


THE UP-MORG AND FRIENDS.

Grateful to meet the people of MOrg (Musician’s Organization) I didn’t expect that I would be included in any organization since I am still losing up on my first semester. But yah, life’s unpredictable, a lot of things happened, I was happy, I learned a lot.


THE HEART TALK.

I would lie if I say my heart ain’t pleased for the truth is apparent. =))

Best love. Best year. Best friend.



THE TEARS.

Ito na siguro ang pinaka-lunod sa luha kong school year.

I’ve shed a million bucket of tears since my first months in UP, for all the right and shallow reasons. Problems related to school, related to friends, related to family, related to SELF and related with the sensitivity of the heart. (meganon?)

Now I could say, hindi pala talaga bato ang luha ko, I’ve learned that I am a tear-jerk after all.


THE SMILES.

Experiences I’ve had were all tremendous, I mean, hindi ko talaga siya inexpect, for I thought I’d be a loner for the whole year. Thankful kay LORD, dahil binigyan niya ‘ko ng mababait na kaibigan, at nakakadismayang mga karanasan upang ako ay matuto.

I’ve experienced being genuinely happy and contented because of someone.
I’ve felt how it is to be hurt and humiliated. It’s all about the smiles that we should be counting on and not the tears =)



The changes I’ve gone through is practically normal, what I’ve learned is that, change can actually be a personal choice, and whenever we decide to change, we meet resistance and we are always challenged to see if we are serious.




This year was made possible (commercial? Haha) by our one and only God, and because of Him, I am able to stand up from all the downfalls I took, He knows I needed that. This continuity of my survival is all because of Him, and I shall continue struggling and enduring because I know, I owe it all to Him.