Sometimes, best friend knows best.
It’s been a month since the second semester begun; I hadn’t notice how swift that was. I even felt like it’s only been two weeks since November (yes, way too late I know), yet here it is, and another week from now would be the beginning of the much-awaited Christmas break. Yey!
Still no phone for three weeks now (which feels like eternity), I have yet to endure this until Christmas break (I hope) because if not, oh might as well kill myself. Ha ha ha.
One of the things I really like doing is laughing like there’s no tomorrow. I know it’s weird, shallow and crazy, but that’s the thing about laughter, it always gets into the kid inside of us. I want to feel laughter as much as I don’t want to feel pain afterwards.
Is it wrong to be insanely jealous about someone?
Alright I know, almost everyone I knew thinks that jealousy is one form of insecurity. What the? I honestly never felt insecure towards anything or anyone, for all I know, I adore girls and admire them in a very horrifying lesbian way of admiration. LOL. Yes seriously, indeed I only see myself being jealous if that includes someone I love. Take my best friend as an example; I know somehow that you’ve also been through that phase wherein you thought your best friend is replacing you with another. I’ve been there a gazillion times since elementary days, I knew how dreadful jealousy is, and how it could actually wallow you into a pit of melancholy, resentment and despair.
“parang naghuhukay ka na ng sarili mong libing”
Yet could you blame? Could you blame if your best friend actually loves you and cares for you that she/he doesn’t want to be left behind? (But if she/he goes way beyond proportion, that’s a different story) and could you blame if that person can’t help but feel that way?
I have a lot of things in mind right now, that’s why I decided to work on my fingers.
I decided not to sleep unless I get this out of my drained brain.
I’ll never forget DECEMBER 5 2008.
8 AM
I remember doing my devotion the moment I woke my senses. I prayed and seek for God’s grace and hoped for a bright start and warm ending.
10 AM
I had my classes, 2 classes, and finished off just quite well.
1 PM or so..
Had lunch with some buddies, had the “bunutan session” for our exchange gifts,
nagulat sa nabunot na pangalan, hindi ko inaasahan.
Around 4 PM
And then I met up with another friend (way beyond schedule!) who shall accompany me to Lyceum, another friend tags along (ehem), and I had the chance to be with my Lycean Dudes (haven’t been with them for quite a long time though), I missed how everything was a year ago. I missed all of it.
5:30 PM
After that awesome yet so little time with them, I needed to go to WildSons (youth gathering). Yes that was the most remarkable part of my day actually. Everything is all for Him.
7:45 PM
After WildSons, (this is the time wherein combs and hairbrushes are already following me)
I knew I needed to drop by Paz Mendoza parking lot for MOrg live 3.0! =)
Although I am not intending to stay long, mom would kill me, it was great being able to witness my buddies and orgmates perform. =)
9 PM
Went home. Ended the day just right.
And how I missed home. I recalled everything that had happened to me that day, every single laughter and enjoyment I had experienced, and every bit of lessons I have learned. I even said to myself: “if there is any day in this whole life that I would want to happen over again, it would be this exact day.”
I may be shallow, when in regards to a lot of matters. I knew I shouldn’t have been like that. I didn’t know I was that kind of monster. But I thanked God completely, I think it’s another push for me to trust myself, another push to appreciate and express myself, and another push to set aside my fears. Positive much? That's how i want to wrap this night. That’s how I wanted things to end for this entry.
Goodnight =)
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