At first I never wanted to be with you. I know we're not meant to be. It's like defying destiny, no matter how hard I try to deny and persist the thought that I can never go on another day with you, nothing has changed. Each day we face what seems like an unceasing endeavour, to test our faith and strong belief. They say it comes with the territory. For three years now, not a day passes that I didn't hope this relationship would end.. its torment in my life, along with all its bitterness and hatred. For so many times I hoped I could get it all back, back to ignorant days and tell myself something bad will come. I've learned to love you, as scared as hell to admit that I am falling for you, amidst your selfishness and snobbery, I've learned to accept you for what you are, for what you have been doing to my body, soul and mind. You've creatively turned me into a self-sufficing person, it's rather ironic that you actually embodies selflessness, and yet you couldn't give me a speck of genuine attention. But throughout the course of three years, I've seen how you do your way, you make me bite the bullet by putting me at the bottom of the totem pole. It's just too unfair and too sudden, I have never dreamt of too much greatness, I've only wanted to be the person I have aspired myself to be, and not the person you wanted me to be just because I owe you this road I'm taking.
But at the end of it all, I will thank you, I will feel gratified as if nothing went wrong, I will think about what you have taught me and the things you made me see that I never once saw, you showed me the importance of putting myself first, and the paradox that being evil is good at times, being evil will make you see the worst and best of you. Some roads lead to something great, some roads lead to something better, yet some roads lead nowhere. For you and with you, I have let fate take its course, I have let you in because I know you will lead me some place better than nowhere, you are important to me as much as you give importance to everyone around you. You have your ways, greedy yet stunning ways on how you make me the person I have never imagined myself to be. I know everyone else will hate you. But none can stand not loving you for what you are.
Thank you, UP.
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