Wednesday night lights

IT started a few weeks ago, when coffee became my best friend, mirror is the enemy, and ants are my frenemies. I wake up everyday with the blue sky calming me back to bed, refreshing scent of morning air, and a thick fluffaaay blanket. Yes, it's absolutely hard for me to leave the bed each single school day. Three years ago, when I'm having a hard time finding a sensible reason to open my eyes, I usually think of future break hours when I get to spend it with my friends, and I also think of somebody whom I know would be forced to call me beautiful even just once a day, (insert super mega evil laugh). Besides this day to day dilemma, there's this person I'd like to talk about. He's a nobody. He's just a boy I see in school. He's quite disturbed, you'll probably consider him as an "emo" person once you get a glance of his black jacket, headphones and I mean HEADPHONES, and a chuck taylor shoes. You know, the typical "emo attire", so they say. I don't know a lot about him, but he seems pretty much intelligent, well, his blog entries say so (don't ask me why I know), and I'm just really wondering why everyone I know see him as a really weird and disturbed person. Although I'd be honest, too, that's also my perception of him. But sometimes I get to feel how insanely happy he must be if only people would reach out and talk to him nicely. Am I now a crazy trying-hard psychiatrist or what? Nothing.. I just feel for him, you know, when sometimes all loners need is a little sorta kinda nudge. I'm thinking maybe he really has that wall up around him somehow strongly barricading his whole identity. Maybe he just wants to guard his heart or whatever. I dunno, I just felt sorta wee bit curious, (emphasis on my redundancies), evident on this blog post I made extra special for him. Maybe someday he'll know someone's watching him from afar. Maybe someday he'll give himself a chance to be free, or maybe someone someday will finally break those walls. Just maybe's that might head nowhere, yet still hoping, that there's a bit of a chance for people like him, to give him the kind of people who'll never give up on somebody no matter what, to see what no other people can, and to love somebody as long as one knows it so.