Still, the best thing.

Random 91: I learned how to swim when I was 4 years old. I can recall how much I love taking a bath in a bathtub, and mom and I were in this hotel and the tub was quite deep for a 4 year old like me so I started swimming around and I just realized that I can already float. Sooo. My mom's company (interior design) before was situated in a very cool place that I couldn't remember the name. It's more of a clubhouse actually. She would leave me in the pool while she works, so that actually started my liking for swimming. Everyday I would swim in a 10-feet deep pool and would pee every now and then (Okay, I seriously don't do that anymore. Haha). It's also an Olympic size pool (or maybe it seemed like it is then since I'm still small that time), but it's really where some serious swimmers go for practice. I miss that. This is why I know the importance of my past, I am always attached to it in ways I can never let go of. It reminds me a lot of who I am and not the person that I want myself to be. Past is past, they say. But for me, past is a reminder of what's real and the reason why we're the person that we are.

The life I once had.

I miss this tree. My family would put that up every Christmas when we were still in our former sanctuary (bigger than any house we've had, so it's pretty much like a playground for us). I miss putting up Christmas balls, lights, ribbons and fake big gift boxes around the tree. My brothers were still so young then, and I had no idea how much difference it'll make without the ritual of setting up that almost 10 feet tree. Now, we have never done anything close to setting up a tree, our maids would do it, but the tree would look nothing like that. I wish that if I were given a chance to go back, I'd tell myself how happy and grateful I should be for having that tree in the house. That tree had brought us together even for just once in a while. The absence of the tree did make a difference to us, but no matter how big the difference/s is/are, it is always the best reminder that we were once and will always find a way to be together.