Meandering words.

It’s amazing just how much pain a human heart can take. Owning to what has to be other’s crap, and being too sensitive towards petty reasons. Of course it is considered not rational, neither is it reasonable. But the emotional intellect of a person dictates it’s the right feeling at the moment and more often it becomes impossible to withstand.



Just a year ago, I discovered what I really ought to be when faced with certain circumstances, I found out a lot about who I am, and I’ve learned so much about other people. Other people, who think that I know little about them, that I’m too sheltered, too reserved to be able to understand what the crap they hold. I know I’m a party-barred, almost too-good, they say, but surely I’m not close-minded.



It’s pretty sad, knowing you can’t be too good for a friend to keep, knowing there are more and more significant friends than you are, sometimes it takes a lot of understanding to stand the thought that not every friend of yours are willing to standby.

hwe? drama.

Ang dami ko nanamang naiisip.



I had a dream last night, puro eroplano, lagi akong nananaginip na nasa eroplano daw ako. Minsan bumabagsak na daw yung eroplano. Tapos easy lang ako, hindi ako nag-panic. Parang tuwang-tuwa pa daw ako. Tapos lahat kami nagparachute!! (tama ba spelling? haha)Tapos yun! Nagising ako! Syet! Lahat ng unan ko nasa sahig na. Ewan ko ba.



And syempre ang usual dream na nakaka-drive na daw ako. Ang sarap ng feeling! (commercial?) may isang panaginip na hindi ko makakalimutan. May pyesta/bday ata, tapos may handang lechon. Sobrang gusto ko daw kumain ng lechon! Kaya kulang na lang makipagpatayan ako, pero sa kasamaang palad, walang natira sa’kin.. at sa nakakatawang pangyayari.. umiyak daw ako. =)) tapos gumising ako ng lumuluha. =)) parang timang. Siguro hindi ako nakakain ng marami noong gabing ‘yon.





Have you met that person?



Someone who might’ve taken you for granted, still you chose to be with them? Someone who could make you feel so bad, so worthless that you want to kill them, but you know you’ll die without them? Someone you just wish was a different person, yet you know that’s the kind of person you need? Someone, that despite every flaw, every pain they inflict in you, in the end… it’s still the only path towards them that you’d choose to follow.



The words of a parent are like shot gun in my ears, continuous bratatatattatat! That I just hate it when I get killed; all I could hear are the same old lines ever written in the minds of every parent whenever their kids wouldn’t obey them. I claim their thoughts once in a while, implant it in my brain cells and come up with a brilliant goal; to get my own apartment once I set off on my own and once I’m able to fend for myself.


Whatever me.


Malapit nanaman pasukan, naurong naman so masaya pa rin. Salamat sa mga baboy.


Sa totoo lang, gusto ko na rin pumasok. Mahirap talaga kumita pag bakasyon. Buti na lang may trabaho ako--Tambay,Slash,Utus-utusan,Slash,BossKunwari.

As for my subjects, ayan na, EMO TIME. Loner ako sa 6 subjects. Dahil 2 subjects lang ang sure na may kilala ako. Hirap talaga maging irreg.



Oh well sa ngayon. Nagiging walang kwenta ang buhay ko. Wala lang. taong-bahay nanaman, minsan taong-mall, tapos minsan tau-tauhan. Hindi ako biniyayaan ng kapayapaan na lumayas gabi-gabi at sumayaw sayaw sa bar at maglasing-lasingan. Kahit naman malaya kong magagawa ‘yon, mas gugustuhin ko pang mag-kape at mag-chippy na lang, tipid pa. Nagpapasalamat din ako sa magulang ko na strikto sila pagdating sa ganon, para balangaraw, alam ko na ang tama at mali kapag wala ng pipigil sa’kin lumayas-layas tuwing gabi. Pero...



GUSTO KO NA TUMANDA! =)



Hindi naman ‘yong tipong uugod-ugod. ‘yong man lang makapagpundar ako ng sarili kong bahay at kotse, masaya na ‘ko. Makabili man lang ako ng ASO, at sarili kong mga luho, ok na ‘yon, basta, magpapayaman ako. =)) sarap mangarap. Kahit na matagal pa ‘yon at walang kasiguraduhan, gagawin ko lahat, kahit maging extra sa mga pelikula. Hahahaha.



Mistulang isang kaguluhan itong entry ko. Pero kasi, wala na rin sa katinuan ang utak ko e. minsan gusto ko magsulat, pero laging nauudlot, laging hindi natatapos. Naka-save lang palagi sa pc kaya nilalangaw na. pinagsama ko na lang lahat. Para masaya. Haha.



O LORD. SALAMAT SA ULAN. =)