Missing You ;(

Thursday- pinaka mahabang oras ko sa school. Compare to my other days na 4 ½ hours lang.. ahaha.. anyway, lessons lang naman ang mga naganap. And this hands-on activity ng isang babakla-baklang prof sa F&B. ;) darn! Lagi na lang ako natatawag, bawat hands-on activity na lang, ay sus.

Wala talaga sa pangarap ko maging waitress men! Haha. Kasi naman, there’s this plate techniques, yung tipong hahawak ka ng 4 na plato wid some strategies na ipagsisiksikan mo ung tatlo sa isa mong kamay. And kanina, argh. Iba nanaman. Hahaha. At ayun ako nga yan nagiging waitstaff. Mistulang napagkatuwaan nanaman. ;)



Sa English class, there’s this really weird na nangyari, haha. I was called by our prof to recite and then she asked me to explain what was posted on the board, so there’s this examples of commonly confused words, and I was really not in the mood so kung ano ano ung nasagot ko. ;) hehe. And then, late ko na na-realize na mali ung sinabi ko, and hindi man lang niya napansin yun! Haha. Ewan ko ah, I dnt know kung napansin niya and she ignored it, or talagang walang muang! Haha. ;) wala lang, just sharing.

and hindi na rin natuloy ung pag punta namin sa Araneta for UAAP. ;( sayang din e.. pero im so happy!! THEY WON. hehe. go ateneo! ;) haha. how i wish i could be an Atenista na lang. para walang prob sa tickets. ;) hehe. dreamin' again. darn it.


Hay..

I’m kind of missing someone right now.

I don’t know, losing him was such a pain and at the same time I am still quite fine with it. I was not at all regretting about it, I was just really really missing him. I put my mind over my heart and believe me, its painful. ;( Realizing the fact that no matter how I try to set my mind to it, my heart, my weaknesses and my feelings does rule over it. How do I get over these emotions anyway? If all I sought after was to be happy, I want to be satisfied without the love of someone whose job is to fill up my emptiness. I don’t like that, I am a freak because I don’t want any uncertainties when it comes to those kind of things, if that person is the one, then he shall be the one until the end. But that is, as we all know, too impossible to even dream of. Married couples with 4 kids sometimes still do ends with divorce right? How much more the young ones, whose only job is to study, to play, to have fun, to fail, to learn, to be carefree! Hell yea, completely not possible for any certainties.

One thing that I am certain of is the genuine love that I’ve given to him, an incomparable love. Love that I hoped I’ve given to him not just by my words, but indeed more than that. I wanted to give my every bit of care, my every concern, my every love to him, if only he was just not that far. ;( Distance does matter, time and distance. I can’t believe I would even consider that, but now I’m buying it. You may not understand that, but I’d really hope you could.


I know he might read this, and so? I even wished you would anyway. Hehe. Just so you know how I feel right now. Cause I don’t have any idea what’s going on with you. ;(


I really do miss you dadi.

I hope you feel the same way. ;(



Damn. I feel bad. ;(