Steady.

For those of you who find the time to read this, thank you. I've had many messy experiences lately; literally and figuratively. I tend to forget that a single slight movement can lead to a domino effect. A single wrong move can lead to further frustrations and it's difficult to stop it. One thing I've learned in a three-year relationship is that once respect is gone, nothing else stays the same. But here's the thing about having long-term relationships; it's completely worth it.

In every tear, in every laugh and in every moment that you get to share with your significant other is a lifetime's worth of memory. You'll remember him/her in every places you've been together, in every corner of every street that you walked hand-in-hand together and in every chance you get to say the words you thought you can never say to another specie. Whatever happened in your long-term relationship will be held liable for your future actions as you engage in another relationship.

Love is a self-inflicted pain sometimes; you make your own dramas, craft your own fairytale-like fantasies that he or she will do this and shit things like that and other impossible scenarios in your head. Disney is a blame for this. As far as I know, I've been a fan of Sleeping Beauty and Snow White since I was 3. I remember playing those VHS tapes over and over until our car-shaped tape rewinder gave up on me. :|

I'm a complete sucker for fairytales. That for once, maybe, someone will really be there to act as your knight in a glamorous and extra shiny armor to eventually sweep you off of your feet. But no man can ever act like your knight in a glamorous and extra shiny armor unless you sleep all your life and continue dreaming 'til you die. I'm not a complete sucker for koreanovelas though, which illustrates love stories that are more likely to exist in real life than fairytales but yet again, too good to be true.

Yes, this is too biased because I know a lot of guys who still knows the essence of chivalry & humility.

But for what it's worth, not all girls and boys will ever be the same when it comes to their own relationships. It will depend on how you treat each other from the very beginning. It's a long cycle of gives and takes, exchange of stories and countless promises that you'll never know if he/she will stand by it.

Finally, it's a risk. For a long time, I've been making risks for the sake of fighting for something I know will mean something if not everything to me. It's a risk you'd have to take even before you're completely ready for it. Because you'll never know what'll happen if you do or if you don't, so better take it than stand and never know how beautiful it might be. The lessons you'll gain from a long-term relationship will help you grow as a person and realize a lot of things that you can never do when you're single.

I've had the best and worst three years of my life, but of course I will focus on saying it was still the best. I've known my capacity as a person and the adjustments that I have to learn in the future. Because I still believe, after all, that maybe my knight in a not-so-shiny armor will still exist as a boy who wears plain t-shirts, pants and sneakers who won't give me the world but will give me a part of him that he knows I can break.

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