So what's up hommies? How are you all doing? (I heard an echo of myself, haha) These days couldn't get any better. I mean it literally. I believe that running back to the Lord has always been my last resort, which is the biggest mistake that I kept doing over and over.
"God will never abandon you like the world does." The problem with my deteriorating brain is that whenever I think about this, my so-called pragmatic views are resurfacing and recurrently starting a debate ergo I am having a hard time thinking positively when the world itself is slapping me in the face with all the shitness of life, it may seem illogical to consider reality as negative, but let's face it, when life gives us problems we turn to where and to whom? (besides friends, family or any kind of human being)
And because of that, I started doubting everything and everybody, doubting their genuineness, their ability to be selfless, their kindness and giving-a-shit-ness because people these days can be as crab-mental as a crab (corny). So yes, I've tried to make things simple. So this is it. Reality or God. My bright yet weird professor once said that believing in God is like wanting to control something that is uncontrollable.
Like destiny, unlikely events, adverse occurrences and so forth. Religions are quite complex, and to understand each of them, you have to be unbiased as possible. I remember going to Quezon province to witness different religions, I forgot the names of these religions but the common denominator of these is that they all have one God, a supreme being, and the maker of all things, they varied in names but still it is considered God. I once ventured on the realm of "Born-again Christians", they have such optimism in their ways of worship, they dance and they sing, they believe that Jesus is the only One who would serve as your bridge to God, they have strong and powerful notions of the ability of an individual to change his or her well-being once he or she is able to accept that Jesus is everybody's savior. Of course all of these does not account to everything, I only know very little about them.
Its just sad that I haven't been active to my own religion. I couldn't even recall the last time I went to the church, not even Christmas, or Bdays, geeeesh. If only my house isn't situated at some deserted reclaimed area.
My only compensations are praying and reading the bible. I read the bible, (yes I still do) and once I open the bible, I make sure that every logical and over-analyzing brain cells I have should be soundly sleeping. I don't know if that ever happens to anyone or had anybody ever admitted to think the same way too, it's just that I tend to be biased when I think about other things or when I'm distracted by other thoughts, same goes with my day to day journey, I tend to not focus on one thing, so that's a problem, I guess.
The point is, there will always be a distraction whether we like it or not (this blog is also a distraction as I was researching for my homework, define cramming)
Perhaps Religion gives us the reason to choose happiness instead of the other way around (since happiness is a choice), perhaps it is religion that aids us to confront our reality and make a better picture of it. I know we have our own logical reasons, logical statements to prove that a person has a power to attract positive vibes, a person has to be his or her own best friend, and whatever inspirational books are aiming for. I'm grateful that in every way, I know my God is with me, that according to a song "it feels bad now but its gonna get better someday", may sound really simple, random or so mainstream, but it happens, so might as well ride with it. Its that or make your own grave.
3 comments:
i'll use the term "spirituality" here instead of religion. because to me, religion means "organized religion", which is dogmatic and pretty much one of the main problems of mankind ever since the first "church" set up shop and tried to convince people THEY were the only right way of thinking and everyone else is going to hell.
the first rule is: spirituality and science/logic NEVER mix. they hav different functions in our life n in fact and address different realms of knowledge.
science concerns itself with knowledge that is understandable, either experimentally or theoretically.
spirituality concerns itself with those realms of knowledge that science presently cannot grasp, perhaps due to limitations in the human mind.
a third realm of knowledge, that is in between these two, is being dealt with by something called "metaphysics", which is a combo of spirituality/science.
the goal of spirituality is simple: it's to help people achieve happiness and contentment even in the midst of all the bad things going on in the world, and to provide solace about our mortality.
it's not meant to be rigorously analyzed as a science would analyze a rock, or a tree, or a building. spirituality would break down in this morass of analysis not because it is illogical, but because it is BEYOND logic. it needs FAITH. it needs your faith to continue making a difference in ur life.
ps. as u probably remember, i'm not catholic, or even christian. i don't even think there is this human looking male "god" looking out for everyone. it's pretty obvious there isn't. and yet, like almost every person, i still cling to some measure of spirituality (what is called quantum tao, w/ch i think is closer to reality than the older types of spiritual mumbo jumbo), because it gives me hope that there is something beyond the everyday realities that continually try to drag me down. i try to inflict rational logic onto it, but in the end, i still need a leap of faith to maintain its solid-looking edifice.
Hey, yah you're right, it's better to term it as "spirituality" rather than religion.
Ikaw ng matalino. Ikaw ng maraming alam. Haha. You just made my blog "deep-errr" haha. but we have the same thoughts.
di naman, kaibigan. hope ur still doing ok.
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