Semi-summer

I haven’t written anything normal most of the time, I know that. Its way too difficult for me to collect my thoughts while I’m being murdered by a bunch of school works. Fortunately, final examinations are done and I’m now enjoying a semi-summer, for I still have one final paper to work on.

If I can sum up everything that happened this semester it’ll be: drastic change.

I learned to be more self-sufficient, and I continue to learn so since I had landed my foot on the realm of college.

I learned that not everyone knows the meaning of friendship, and that there are people who are very much insensitive, may it be intentional or unintentional. I learned that changes are naturally occurring and that accepting change is always not easy, it takes a strong heart and a hopeful spirit to eventually let change occur upon us.

I learned that we all need someone, that although we are independent, sufficient and capable of loving ourselves, deep inside of us we still long for someone to do the same for us, to see us through, to have someone to talk about when we’re out with our friends, and to be with someone who will be there for us as long as he/she can. I’ve witnessed a lot of hopeless romantics this semester (I'm one of them, though) and I was rather bewildered, uh no, amazed, I thought that making commitments with somebody is always a choice, of course its not (stupid), one cannot just find love, that love is always unpredictable. Corny as it sounds, but it is true, there’s nothing wrong with waiting as long as we make the right choices and does not remain static.

Couples who are engaged in long-term relationships require a lot of patience; they would have to go through a lot of adjustments, major disappointments, boringness or lack of excitements, difficult choices and countable mistakes, just like a normal human being struggling to have a good relationship with life itself.

What about your serious classroom lectures?

I learned a lot, of course. But I seldom care about my grades, even if I loathe myself whenever I fail, in the end, it is not the grades that dictate the intelligence of a person, although that is very difficult to grasp considering that I am a UP student, believe me it does not make me anymore different than any of those ordinary students who goes to school for the sake of going to school and not for the sake of learning God-forsaken irrelevant subjects. Lol. I’m just a student for the sake of having a decent future job. What matters most to me, is that I am learning things that are pertinent to life. Quoting former UP student Kuya Kim Atienza, he said that it is not I.Q. that matters most in UP, it is one’s E.Q.

Couldn’t agree more. Not only in UP though, in life per se. Our emotional capacity to continue to subsist despite difficulties is what really counts the most. Emotions are very powerful.