Another one of those, you shouldnt bother reading.

I used to think that I’ll never be parallel with these intelligent aliens I’m surrounded with almost everyday. No, not “used to”, it was actually subsisting until now, much worse I guess.


My friend and I came across this apparently tall American guy, he was seemingly noticeable because of his height, that’s wherein I suddenly commented to my friend; “ang liit talaga ng mga pilipino”. And he voiced out his contrasting ideas to mine, but I ended up saying, “If he isn’t here along with the other filipino’s, it wouldn’t be apparent that filipino’s are actually not that tall.”


I didn’t know if my grounds for that statement could be true or not, all the while we were just having fun switching shallow ideas about an innocent guy. Yet, it actually made a little sense to me this day, especially when I think back to those occurrences wherein people around me were similar to the American guy. ME--Little? Small? Short? Inferior? I could’ve been so denial if I should neglect the fact that I will never, ever, ever be parallel with all of them. It's true—I will never be.



I am now starting to hate and disgust mistakes. Not because I am too proud nor too arrogant to accept it. But I hate how people laugh at mistakes. I’m really not like this. I RARELY make fun nor laugh at other people’s mishaps. Rarely. But when I entered this hell freaking world, I started to laugh and make fun of even the tiniest gaffe people make.


Na-realize ko ‘yon kanina, kasi nasasaktan na pala ‘ko, kapag pinagtatawanan ka. Naisip ko, ako rin naman ganon na rin e, bakit pa ‘ko magrereact? Siguro nga, ganon lang talaga. Iba kasi talaga kapag hindi sila ang kasama ko, kahit gaano pa ka-mali ang sabihin mo, hindi na big deal sa iba, pero sa kanila, big deal ‘yon. And maybe I was wrong to feel that way, SO WRONG. i shouldnt take those things personally. anyhow, i know who i am and i hold onto those few people who appreciate me for who i am.


Have you ever wondered how your life looks like through other people’s eyes?


I sure do. And oftentimes, it is inevitable to bear in mind what other people would say. Kahit pa sabihin natin sa isa’t isa na “huwag mo iisipin ang sinasabi ng iba”, kahit ilang ulit mo yan isaksak sa utak ng isang tao, minsan hindi pa rin maiiwasan na sumagi sa isip nila ‘yon. Malaki kasi epekto ng ibang tao sa buhay natin, almost every aspect of our lives-- apektado. We human beings are naturally required to socialize to live, and that includes other people and everything about them. Kaya tayo may “Social science”, at kaya merong “The Buzz” at “S files”.


Anyway,


Mistakes are helpful in so many ways. Although, it’s always risky, always tends to interfere with our almost-happy life. It’s also destructing, diminishes our self-esteem and changes the way we see ourselves. However, if we think constructively about having mistakes, it will not control us, thus we control it.
Masaya na sana ako. Pero may mga bagay na nagpapalungkot pa rin;


HIM- He shouldn’t feel that way, why should he?
HIM 2- He shouldn’t be mad at me, why would he be?
HIM 3- He loves me, really?

HER- She’s irritating, until now, she is. Why can’t she stop boosting her ego? It’s too much.
HER 2- I missed her, how is she now, I wonder?
HER 3- I loathe her since, but I’m willing to make things fine again, is she fine with it?

I know this is confusing. :D bear with me ;)